I hate to have to say that outloud, but it's true. Today she made me so made that tears of anger washed my face. I haven't felt that kind of anger in a long time. My sister is in a much higher tax bracket than I am and she makes no bones about how much better she is than me. She talks down to me as if I were nothing. I love her and yet I hate her. She can make a room full of people feel awkward just with her mood. It's palpable. It's like she needs to be personally invited to every family event there is. And we aren't a formal bunch. If my mom calls her in the morning and she's busy then, she expects another call later inviting her again closer to the time of a meal. My mom bulls up and won't do that and my sister gets offended and says she's "out of the loop". She always says that sarcastically to me like I'm the one keeping her out of the loop. That's not true at all. She won't call my parents and they won't call her. Both thinks the other should do the calling. Somehow I get put squarely in the middle as I have my whole life. Each asks me what the other is up to. Today my sister brought up an instance where she thought she was slighted about being asked to a flea market. (Although she said I brought it up, which I didn't.) She was asked the night before and said maybe. The next morning she was asked again and said no because she had been, "left out of the loop." See, she wants to be invited again and again. So, today I told her that maybe in the future if she feels I'm keeping her out of the loop that she should talk directly with my parents. She tells me I'm making an issue out of things and that she does not need my drama. My drama? Please. She said that we would just continue as we always do. I said, "Alright then. Have a nice day." I am 46 years old and older than here. I will not be treated like that anymore. I've let her walk all over me my entire life and I'm done. I will not buffer her sand paper personality for my parents any longer. She can show her true colors. Right now I am so angry at her that I spit nails. She's a bitch and bullying one at that. She's got a vicious mouth when she's angry. She'll pick an agrument and then tell me it's my drama. Fuck her.
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