Posted on May 05, 2008 at 07:57 AM (UTC)
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so, i'm married. for the second and last time. but...not always happily. most of the time, yes...but sometimes i want/need MORE: -want to be told i'm fucking hot, totally fuckable, and still sexy at age 44. even if it's not really all that true any more (hell, i'm 44 and have had 2 kids!) -want to be wanted more than i want. sometimes want to want more than i'm wanted. - want to be taken. just totally taken. by surprise. maybe even by a stranger. so, here's my confession: i'm a white married mom of four who loves to party and still get my rock'n'roll on. i go to a punk concert and and later meet a younger and exceptionally hot black man who wants nothing more than to fuck me silly. drunk as i am, much as i want to...i say 'no can do, married, kids, blah blah blah.' except...i make out with him in a back alley like we're teenagers. he gives me a fucking HICKEY, fer chrissake. i haven't had a hickey since high school. we don't actually have sex, not even sort of...just heavy kissing & copping a few feels now and then. still, we remain chaste as chaste can be when one of us is MARRIED. so, a couple days pass where i feel alternately guilty and thrilled that a young 30-something single guy wants me. he texts my phone the next morning...while i'm still in the guilt phase...so i ignore it. try to pretend it didn't happen. the silly hickey is a 'curling iron burn'...and i try to forget. which works just fine until tonight, when my husband tells me he's horny but tired (subtext=kind of bored, too). So i answer the text, tell him to call me (embarrasingly, neither of us remembers each others name - just the lust, the want, the FUCK ME NOW feeling). Weirdly, that's ok with us both. We really just want to screw each other silly. So...what do i do? follow my fantasy? (in all my years as a single person, i've wanted to fuck a black man but never had the chance or the right man). i realize that this sounds horrible: i don't want to fuck him just b/c he's black, or just b/c he's younger than me, though those things play heavily into my fantasies... i want to fuck him because there is something i've lost in my marriage: this younger hot guy wants to worship me, wants to pay a kind of attention to me, and my pussy, that i think my husband has forgotton about. i want to fuck him to see him come: to worship him, his cock...something my husband now takes for granted. BUT. but. but. i'm not the kind of woman to have an affair, to cheat on a husband who loves me even once the sense of being cherished is gone. i know that is unsustainable in the long-term, but easy to achieve in the short, esp. with a man who knows he can never really HAVE ME, OWN ME, OR COUNT ON ME. goddammit, that's part of the thrill: I AM NOT YOURS. I do not belong to you any more than you belong to me. WE CAN JUST ENJOY EACH OTHER'S BODIES. he knows where we stand. i can't bring myself to tell my husband my fantasies about this (he pretends he would indulge my fantasies, but i don't trust the reality of detail). is his race part of the thrill? it's another horrible thing i hate to admit (because generally, i don't 'see' race often). but yes, yes, yes, it is. the thought of his dark skin against my fair irish-american skin is thrilling to me. but then there's the fears: #1, my husband finds out and is hurt because i didn't tell him first. #2, that this sweet young man wants more from me than i can give. #3, he's just playing out his own fantasy and i am just his pawn. and the worst fear???? once he sees this 44 year old body he finds me completely unattractive. i don't really want advice, i'm afraid. i'll probably follow through on this because I WANT. because HE WANTS. because...what's the worst that can happen? chances are (safe sex), no one will ever know besides the two of us...
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Posted on January 07, 2010 at 07:45 AM (UTC) ( over 3 years ago )wrote the following:
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Posted on February 10, 2010 at 03:23 PM (UTC) ( over 3 years ago )wrote the following:
Yea am ever ready for you baby?when ever and how ever you need me.
whether rain,snow or sunshine days i will attend to you,respect and treat you as you want.am at mcmashdon@yahoo.com or mcmashdon@hotmail.com
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Posted on February 10, 2010 at 03:25 PM (UTC) ( over 3 years ago )wrote the following:
Yea am ever ready for you baby?when ever and how ever you need me.
whether rain,snow or sunshine days i will attend to you,respect and treat you as you want.am at mcmashdon@yahoo.com or mcmashdon@hotmail.com
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Posted on February 13, 2010 at 12:48 AM (UTC) ( over 3 years ago )wrote the following:
I am single female and have always been single but i have to admit that i have slepted with a guy thats seeing someone. the whole hottness of it is that the guy isn't mine and we could get caught with even second that we are together. I have also been the one to cheat even though the guy refused to call what we had a relationship...i slept with a guy that i met when i was drunk and he found out and totally pissed but it didn't end us being with each other. he was trying to make things better between us but the problem was that i wasn't getting enough sex from him so i mean a girl has her needs just like guys and i would say follow your fantasy but promise yourself it will be a one time thing. Just so you can say you did it. OR if you don't want to cheat on your husband...simply tell him that you are having fantasies about this and ask him to allow you to one time. maybe he'd even want to watch. I know I have had almost the same fantasy as you and I am on the way to fulfilling that fantasy now. i almost did but the guy that was setting it up cancelled cuz of the weather...what ever you decide to do about this...don't do it on a wime. think long and hard about it and choose what it best for you. i hope i helped. good luck :)
ps-he already finds you attract with your clothes on...he will feel the same way with your clothes off. besides most guys think a pussy is a pussy. trust me i know....im overweight and get what i need,
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Posted on February 26, 2010 at 11:55 AM (UTC) ( over 3 years ago )wrote the following:
Honey i think you are tired and desperate. is your relashionshi working out?
try sex with your own hubby.
otherwise, i dunno..
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I wanna fuck you just soo badlyyyy! all the comments just make me horny! come on baby lets fuck! right noww!!! First we make out behind that bl;ack alley of urs then go more and more it'll be the best thing ever. I'll make u soooo wet and lick up and down!!! my dick is 12 inch long and i love old and married woman! u are just so sexy even in words, i cant imagine in real life! u're be one hot mama! dammmnnn!! i cant stop jerking off just reading all u have written!erghh! hardcore mama! just like in high school. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh. hearing you moan in my ears. damn mammy!!
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