I'm not quite sure what to do... I'm 16 and he's 36, married, and has kids – fantastic, right? I don't want to be a home wrecker, not that I even think I have a chance with him, but I just can't help feeling flustered when he's around me. I can't really do anything about seeing him at school every day either, since he's my teacher. I started thinking it was love when I went to a school football game. I was going with a friend to get some snacks and we ran into him sitting with his wife and kids. He and my friend are pretty close so he stopped to chat with him. When I saw my teacher with his family I couldn't help but feel awkward… My heart felt like it was going to drop to my stomach so I turned away to pretend I was paying attention to the game. When their conversation was over, we said bye and left to get the snacks. Is love supposed to feel like that, painful and confusing? When I’m in class, he usually sits on top of on of a desk to talk to the class. He always looks around at us and when he turns to look in my direction, I feel kind of happy, but try so hard not to show it. Once he asked another student and me in the class to do a skit in front of the classroom and I’m an extremely shy person so this is what happened: He asked me “Hey (my name) do you mind volunteering for me?” I replied with “Depending on what it is, I most likely will…” he laughed as the other student waited for me to get up. So we did the skit that took about 5 minutes and I’m pretty sure my face was mega red… and not because I was in front of the class, but because he stood so close to me, which was very embarrassing… I try my best to act like I don’t give a shit about his class but It’s so hard… I have an A+ in his class too… so not giving a shit doesn’t really work… I notice that he bullies most of the guys I talk to in his class too, like when I was being friendly to one of my guy friends and gave him a hug, my teacher said “(friend’s name) sit down and take off your headphones” my teacher looked at me and didn’t say anything about my headphones being on. Another time, when another one of my guy friends and I were talking to each other, my teacher was looking at me with a strange look on his face… like disappointment. My friend yelled our teacher’s name and was obviously ignored by him… It seemed pretty immature but I really don’t know how to stop liking this married guy. There are times when I’d try to stop thinking about him by thinking of another person but then I end up comparing them with him… They can never compete with what he’s like. I mean he doesn’t have the looks but he has a great personality. I know that I’m possibly in love with him because he’s what got me over my first love… Story about my first love: Freshman year, I realized I was in love with a really good friend (calling him “One”) that was – still is – a very nice guy with a great personality and sense of humor, my friend (calling her “Two”) ended up liking him after I introduced them. I found out from another friend that “One” told “Two” that he wanted to hang out with “Two” and me but “Two” never told me about it, so she and “One” ended up going together on a date. I’m guessing they really got to know each other since she got really into him later on even though she knew my feelings for him. The ended up going out but it didn’t last that long, but still, even then I never got over “One” until Junior year when I realized my love for my teacher at the game… I know this is bad but it's just something I can't seem to help… I already understand that it’s not going to work between us because it's probably an unrequited love and because of our position as student and teacher. I also know he is a very sincere person to his wife and reputation, so is there any way to stop being in love? I don’t want to think about him anymore... ):
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