Why did this happen to me? Is there any reason or explanation for the SHITTY things that life throws at us. I have been dating this guy for over 4 years, on and off. I was also planning on wwaiting until marriage to lose my virginity. Well one night this "wonderful" guy decides that when I am drunk at a party he is going to try and have sex with me. I don't blame him for it happening because I said yes, but he knew for 3 years now that Ive been wanting to wait. So we have sex. he becomes my boyfriend again and we start getting serious. He is such a jealous guy that it got to the point where I wasn't "allowed" to even say hi to any other guy. He would start huge fights when I would hang out with my girl friends even! He would get so mad at me if he even thought that I was talking to another guy that he would push me down and tell me that he's going to punch me because Im being a bitch. this insecurity was happening because the fuck was cheating on me. And as a result of his cheating he brought herpes back home to me.. So now I have had sex with one man, and I have herpes because of his mistakes...I have no dating life. I try to date, but I could never tell anyone that I was interested in that I have herpes. The stigma is so mean, that I couldnt bear to see someones face if I told them. So I keep going back. I, just like all human beings, need to feel loved. And thats what he does for me. He "loves" me, and he also has herpes so it comforts me. I dont know anyone else who has it.. I feel so alone, and hopeless.. No one is ever going accept it.