Life full of depression.

Posted on July 02, 2009 at 08:42 AM (PDT) ( 8 months ago);
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I am losing it. I am 14. More recently I am finding my true self. I am starting to like the same sex. It makes me horrible to know this about myself. I am forcing myself to date the opposite sex when I really dont want to. If I came out I dont know how people would react. I have gotten to the point where I have cut and tried to hurt myself over it.I recently have gone to two different sports camps. At each camp I met two counselors that were gorgeous. (of course they were the same sex). I cant help but look at them every chance I get. But all of them are in their 20s. But I feel so mature when it comes to them.Well I am home now. I am incredibly depressed. I cant do anything but sit here in grieve. I just want this one person to know how I feel about them. I  feel like I cant go on without them. What should I do? I think everyone would hate me if I came out to them. I dont even want to be here anymore. I am not needed. I dont want to live a life of depression. I want to date people that I like. But I am forcing myself not to. I cant take it.

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  1. RE: Life full of depression.

    Posted on July 03, 2009 at 07:55 AM (PDT) ( 8 months ago )
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    Teenage years are hard enough-nevermind adding on what you are going through. I can't imagine how you feel. I have a friend who just recently told me she was interested in girls. I have kind of thought that for years but it wasnt something I wanted to say in case I was wrong or it hurt her feelings. She has finally confided in a few people and she is turning 30 in a few weeks. I think she has held it in a long time and I hope thats not something you have to go through. Is there not anyone you can confide in now? A friend, family member or a teacher? Maybe there is a website for young gay/bisexual teens that you can go on.  Maybe just having someone to talk to about it will make it easier for you. I don't really have any personal experience in that area so I can't offer much better advice then that. I wish all the best for you and that you can start living your life in a way that makes you happy.

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  2. RE: Life full of depression.

    Posted on July 07, 2009 at 09:10 PM (PDT) ( 8 months ago )
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    wrote the following:

    TRUST ME.

    i've had the EXACT SAME problem.

    i think its just our raging hormones?

    ew i hate that word.

    i'm 13 btw.

    jessicajello@hotmail.com

    EMAIL.

    i'd like to hear your story & help.

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