I used to cut myself all of the time when i was younger. I had depression, and i helped take away my emotional pain by cutting. I cut for about 3 years until I had to stop. You would think that it would be hard for the first year but after that there would be no temptation. That is completely wrong. It has been 3 years since i stopped cutting but i still get the urge to cut when im upset. Sometimes i have to grab my arm and dig my nails into my skin until my anger/sadness goes away. Cutting is such an addiction because it is the way I dealt with my problems. When I was upset I would cut, and that physical pain would help me forget about the emotional pain I was dealing with. It is kind of like when I bled my emotional pain would be released. That sounds kind of creepy but that is the way I feel. The thing is that nobody expects this from me because i am not the usual "type" that would cut herself. On the outside i am a very normal, socail person who is pretty cheerful, but whenever i get upset i have to hold myself back from hurting myself. Lately I have been more tempted than usual, I get so close that I am actually holding scissors up to my skin, but something holds me back. I just wanted to know if other people that are recovering cutters still get the urge to cut, even 3 years or more after the last time you actually cut.
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