so screwed up

Posted on September 07, 2008 at 06:38 PM (PDT) ( ago);
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I am a broken scared little girl stuck in a grown up body. Every relationship I have is a complete mess, everything from my romantic relatioships to my "relationship" with food and my own body. I have not been diagnosed with anything but I have done enough reading to suspect I am a Sex and Love addict, not a nympho where I need sex all the time, but I need validation and to feel loved, desired, and wanted. constantly. I toy with men on a regualr basis with no intention of ever entering into any serious relationship with them. evil? yes, I know. I don't want a relationship. I want the rush and butterflies, that's it. I live for the days that I am stringing a guy along, he is telling me how he is thinking of me, how much he wants me, how he needs me. I live for the flowers.I live for the compliments. I live for the daily text messages from what my friends call "my adoring fans" telling me they are thinking of me, they miss me, they think I am beautiful. I take revealing pictures on my camera phone and send it to 5-10 guys. they all think it is special just for them. I have one guy in England that used to work with me, still 5 years later asking me to move there with my kids and he would take care of us. I know he would. He is a nice guy. After 5 years he says he still loves me, says he probably always will. I play the innocent girl who has for so long been treated poorly, the "please rescue me!" act works everytime. I never con men out of money, many have offered but I make more then 50k, i don't need thier money, I need their attention. I have been beaten by my first husband, raped by the guy before him. So I don't feel bad at all, not even a little. I see it as the men of this world have screwed over women long enough, it's pay back.

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  1. RE: so screwed up

    Posted on September 08, 2008 at 01:13 AM (PDT) ( ago )
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    wrote the following:

    But those men haven't necessarily been the ones screwing women over, so it's not really fair. You'd be the one making the first strike.

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  2. RE: so screwed up

    Posted on September 08, 2008 at 10:13 AM (PDT) ( ago )
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    wrote the following:

    All you need is to get over your "self".

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  3. RE: so screwed up

    Posted on September 08, 2008 at 02:46 PM (PDT) ( ago )
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    wrote the following:

    i say.... do what you want..... but it seems as though you need the attention more than they do... thats the problem...if you can get that under control.. the hell with those men...

     

     

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  4. RE: so screwed up

    Posted on September 09, 2008 at 08:18 PM (PDT) ( ago )
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    wrote the following:

    I think you've got it wrong, sister.

    You're the one that needs us, not the other way around.

    Otherwise you wouldn't be so needy. Remember that the next time you're messing with a guy. :)

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  5. RE: so screwed up

    Posted on September 10, 2008 at 06:45 AM (PDT) ( ago )
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    wrote the following:

    I just want to say to the fellas out there - we're not all like this.  Yikes.

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    • RE: so screwed up

      Posted on September 10, 2008 at 09:32 AM (PDT) ( ago )
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      wrote the following:

      I refuse to believe you until you take revealing pictures on your camera phone and send it to 5-10 guys (including me) so we all think it is special just for us....   ;-)

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