A Mess

Posted on September 07, 2008 at 02:23 PM (PDT) ( ago);
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Most would say I have a good life.  Nice family, couple of lifelong friends.  But I constantly feel lonely.  I can't seem to find a reason to leave the house.  I know that I should, that it would be healthy.  Instead, I choose to stay in, read, hang out online, anything that keep me from having to interact.  At the same time, I miss people.  I miss life.  I have replaced a happy, vibrant person with a drug/alcohol addicted lifeless doll.  I haven't had a relationship in well over a year.

I just feel lost.  At times, like I am clawing my way out of a dark room, only to question sometimes whether or not I really want to get out.

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  1. RE: A Mess

    Posted on September 08, 2008 at 10:11 AM (PDT) ( ago )
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    wrote the following:

    Too much "I" is your main problem.

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    • RE: A Mess

      Posted on September 08, 2008 at 09:42 PM (PDT) ( ago )
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      wrote the following:

      screw you man what does that even mean, this is a blog, for people to write about themselves

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      • RE: A Mess

        Posted on September 09, 2008 at 07:04 AM (PDT) ( ago )
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        wrote the following:

        Don't pay any attention to that idiot.  If you scroll through the blogs on here, he/she has at least one comment on a lot of them, telling everyone that if they would just admit to themselves that they don't really exist, they would have no problems and be happy, wheee.  It's just stupidity.  Most of us ignore him/her.  Which shouldn't bother this person, because, hey, he/she doesn't exist, right?

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  2. RE: A Mess

    Posted on September 08, 2008 at 02:55 PM (PDT) ( ago )
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    wrote the following:

    you sound like me..... basically ive been a house wife for so long and complained about it that i decided to go back to work and school....... but i still act antisocial and stay in the house every chnce i get.... i jus dont feel comfortable being around people... but i still complain about being kept in....... we're jus confused

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  3. RE: A Mess

    Posted on September 09, 2008 at 12:50 PM (PDT) ( ago )
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    wrote the following:

    The Chinese believe that a wife of a man is like a beautiful bird that must be kept in an equally beautiful cage.  I think this is a beautiful poetic analogy to the desire of women.  Yes its nice for a woman to be free and do whatever you want.  Yes it is also nice to be sitting in the best cage around that other birds couldn't break into if they tried!  In the end women look at the bars all day long and forget that the cage door is not even locked.  No matter how entrapping your situation is, you are never trapped (unless physically).  Meditate and come to understand why you are free, and both why and how you would escape if that became your choice.  It is important to not lose sight of the exit so that you understand the logisitics of your position :). 

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    • RE: A Mess

      Posted on September 09, 2008 at 01:02 PM (PDT) ( ago )
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      wrote the following:

      im the one with the comment right above yours...... just wanted to tell you it is very insightful

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