My Rant ~ Mental health

I am going to attempt to write here to get some of the frustrations with the mental health system in the UK out and also to try and attack my condition like it repetitively attacks me. I am 26/F and have been diagnosed with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) here in the UK, and diagnosed BP (Bipolar) in the USA. The difference is that in the USA they actually tried to help me with medication and stuff but in the UK they simply say that there is nothing that can be done (medication wise apparently I can pay for all kinds of therapies that I have tried and tested to no avail) ... NOTHING? MATE I am sorry but I am paying you £280.00 an hour... don't you dare tell me there is not a single drug on the market that can make me not feel like I want to die every second of every day, without even trying... I was told in the USA that there would be something to help at least alleviate some of my morning depression symptoms. I hate it that so called psychiatrists have no actual experience of having depression (OK, OK, yes some might, my last few decidedly didn't) but until you have experienced it there is NO WAY you can even contemplate the complexity and the devastation of this condition. Then you seem to think I want to be this way... Do you really think I like having nothing to tell my friends and family other than how shit I am feeling? God it makes me want to pull my hair out. Yes Dr, I really loveeeee all the attention I am getting for being a miserable son of a bitch all the time, its really how I want my family to see me... as a problem... ANGRY. Wish there was a better support network out there for people with "issues," it's not my fault im broke, and its certainly not yours, but you'd think humanity would prevail and supply some means of relief. How can we ever hope to cure mental illness with the use of people who do not even understand it and have not experienced it, and where the hell are all the clinical trials for the 1000's, no, 100,000's of people who suffer? Surely there must be more that could be done? Just saying...