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I am fond of studying especially in math. When I was in gradeschool grade 6, I got a failing grade of 73 in first grading so my mom decided that i should have a tutorial then after 3 gradings on the final grade i got 93! thats only an introduction. I decided to write here to release my feelings toward this subject or any hard subjects in my college life. I am an engineering student so its not easy for me to understand all the lessons matter especially in analysis. I cried desperately for the **statics**. dont you know my feeling about it- its like i am climbing a high mountain with thorns on every path, i need someone to help me, i need encourage and more positive thoughts to remind myself that i took this course, i should know all i should **understand** all of my lessons. even if our professors will not teach us all about them but i as a student should understand them very well. i know i am industrious, but there is something inside me that fails-my feelings, my heart get easily discouraged. the times i heard statics it mkes my nerves shrill. I dont know what to do, i just put my trust in the Lord God. thats all i have left not my wisdom, even if others will laugh at me because for me statics is a very big problem that i should solve in order for me to pass to another level. i just say to God- Lord this is ur will that i study, even if i feel down and discourage but still you are there for me. Lord even if i think mediocre, i still rely on you, cos in you my future is secured, in you, my life is at best. Lord its only a statics-an ordinary subject compared to your greatness, why should i worry, if you are there for me willing to help me, and give me a new perception towards these difficulties. Lord I pray that i will pass this subject with flying colors! I know I can make this because i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I also realized that when i write in journals or here , at first my sentences seems low, discouraged but when i gone to finale, it become encouraged and has faith because of wht the Lord is doing into my life today. He didn't let me always at the down , he makes me go higher than what i think right now. Cos, I dont have anything left withing myself just a trust to the Lord, just a faith to help me in these problems. I am not sad today, i already feel that someone is watching me, reading this letter or reading my mind- Jesus. I put my trust in HIm, I give my life, my tomorrow, my future in HIs hands. Amen