im a girl that is socially awkward. its not easy for me. i have major trust issues and so am bad at talking to people. like for instance i was tlkn to this one guy and things were ok but im not much of a txter so it didnt last long. im going to end up alone. ive thought of death and i really would welcome it at times. not really tht i want to kill myself...tho ive tried...i just wish i could catch a break. for longest time ive tried to be strong and better myself but im tired of doing so. is it so wrong that i just want to try and support myself and find someone tht will just hold me when i need it and just let me be otherwise?