I feel like i don't have enough time or money or strength to get rid of all of these painful and ugly imperfections. Like cystic fucking pimples. They just stay and stay and stay until you just bawl because your face hurts and looks so disgusting. Also ingrown toenails. They hurt you like nothing you've felt before you cant even do much about it. If something goes wrong trying to fix it yourself then you might get your goddamn foot cut off from infection. And who has the time or money to go out and get these things fixed all the time. Things are just getting worse and the sweaty weather and the sun all just make things worse. At the moment I'm trying to get rid of all these little sun spotted moles on my face too and also a scar that I've gotten from a very stupid, stupid, STUPID bellybutton ring mistake. I don't know what to do I want to cry and I'm not even being treated well in my family. I feel like everyone hates me and they just think that I have no problems. Sometimes I don't need problems. Sometimes I just feel like shit. I can't just feel like shit sometimes? I want to cry. All of these problems fucking suck and I hate them. Oh god why do you hate me so.