For a while now I had been unhappy with the way things were going with my best friend! Our friendship wasn't normal. We would constantly fight, argue and just go at it for the dumbest reasons. I never truly felt like she cared about me. We had barley to almost no common interests. We are two completely different people. I never understood our friendship, why would two people who were completely opposite in every possible way be friends? But I miss her! I miss her so much. The last fight we had was proof that we truly were not good for each other, we bring the absolute worst in each other. I take most of the blame; I messed up one to many times! But instead of her understanding she completely blamed every single thing on me. Everything! She acted all innocent throughout our entire friendship. I will admit I do have anger issues, it’s very hard for me to control my anger sometimes, and I’m easily irritated she should know that by now! I have been put down so much in my life, been made fun of so much that I became such a sarcastic bitch just to cover up my insecurities, and how fragile I really am. I push people away I always have, I hate that about myself, I hate the person I have become, because in my heart that's not who I am, it’s not me It’s not! I think I have finally reached my breaking point. But I know I’m strong and that I will overcome this, I will try and be the best version of myself, losing my best friend has shown me how fragile life is. How every word you say, everything that you do, every choice you make affects not only the people around you but yourself it can the change people for the worst. So as I sit here, reading over what I have just wrote, makes me realize how thankful I am for the people around me who have to put up with me, how as much as I hurt them they keep coming back! I will always cherish the memories I had with her I thank her for all that she has done. It takes a true friend to stick with you at your worst, I'm sorry that my worst came out so frequently. I can truly never say sorry enough for the pain I have caused to those around me I will always be forever grateful!
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