suckish summer days, what ruined my summer

It's crazy how you have no one to talk to so your forced to turn all your problems to a blog. Can't talk to my mom because we just don't get along no matter what the situation. My aunt the most understanding of all and the one I usually turn to left for Med school just 2 days ago (which in my book has felt like two months already) cant turn to my so called "friends" because theyre the people wrapped around this craziness. So it all started when I was at my neighbor's house playing video games (little big planet to be exact ) &he tried to make the game more *interesting* by saying who ever the winner is gets a prize of their choice.. i wanted 5$ but of course he wanted a kiss... now i for 1 did not agree with that at all but is a bet a bet? NO! Not in this case where the boy ive been basically family with since i was a baby wants to put his lips on mine. I still played the game with full intensions on winning .. but just my luck i didnt he tried moving in for the kiss and i was NOT having it .. but me dipping and dodging his lips didnt seem to stop him from continuing to try and kiss me.. telling him how rude and innapropriate he was i stormed out of his room and went to go sleep in his sisters room where i was staying for the night he kept texting my phone saying come back in his room. Of course that didn't happen so the next day I have a sleep over with my cousins and my sister who are younger than me and far less mature. I tell them about a boy that has recently moved in that I like and this song that sounds like his name.. they then ask me to teach them how to do a dance that they saw at a teen party they shouldn't have been at in the first place.. so I did ..the day after that is the day my aunt leaves and the day that everything *blows up in my face* trusting kids younger than me, expecting a boy that just wants to fit in NOT to tell the story his way or not to tell it at all, and saying things I really and truly didn't want people to hear.. so my sister was going to the boy I likes house for a sleep over with his sister.. joking about how I don't want to talk to them for not inviting me then the boy I likes sister tells me that my nehighbor had told her brother that I made out with him. That's also when I found out that my cousin I had a sleep over with told the boy I like that I like him and all the things I've said about him.. I know news travels fast so everyone knows now I've haven't been home since then it's been eating up at me to the point were nothing destracts me from it but pain.. constantly telling my cousin to scrath me as hard as he can and doing crazy things to hurt myself nothing super serious like cutting myself or taking pills or anything to that extent but little things that will take my mind off of what may not seem that serious to you , who ever you may be , but what is life changing and summer ruining for me.. for just a second.. the boy i liked im pretty sure will never talk to me again which is no big deal but hes someone that didnt even know me that well end *thinks* he has an idea of the type of person i am which is not at allllll who i am . now i pretty much feel like i cant show my face where i live ever again when school starts i bet everone at my bus stop will know the news and i cant stand to look any of them in the face and act like none of this ever happen even if they do it will still eat up at me til the day i die now who ever you are reading this i know you wont think the situation is as serious i do but trust me this is eating me up inside A LOT so i thank you from the floor of my heart for wasting your time reading my problems if you even did finish well if your reading this that means you did. anyway thanks (: