I'm not here really to rant or be secretive, but I just wanted to post my thoughts. Maybe it'll help someone that's going through the same thing I am. Let me start off by saying that I love my girlfriend, and I want to marry her. I have never been so taken by someone before in my life. I would do anything for her. Just recently, we've both experienced traumatic events. I have and will continue to be available for her whenever, however, wherever she needs me. We've been in a long distance relationship for about a year which doesn't make things any easier. This was probably one of the toughest things I have done. I didn't want to be away from her, but at the same time, I wanted to show her that I was strong enough to be away. I want to stop living in this limbo, and get back to the one I love. Is this the right time due to these traumatic events that have occurred or do I wait? If I wait, what am I truly waiting for?