The more and more I think about him the more n more sad I get.. This isn't one of ur usual break ups where u say ur good byes n u never see each-other again.. He's apart of my life forever now that my cousin and his brother are married and having a baby.. I got over him for a while then we hung out hooked up n bam! Feelins came back faster then the speed of light :( I wish I could have the normal "it's over have a good life" break up but it's hard with him because he was my first love! We we each-others first love and we know that but the thing is when I'm Fallin for him he's Fallin for her n when he's fallin for me I'm over him.. I hate that we flip flop around and mess with each-others emotions. My cousin says she see me n him gettin back together and I do to in the future but who knows how he feels... I'm not over him and I'm scared I'll never be. I'm not sure y I keep hurtin myself this way. I wish there was a switch that would turn off my feelins for him completely. When I see him with "her" it hurts me only because I know she doesn't love him as much as I loved him. It'd be easier to move on if I saw him happy, but just by lookin in his eyes I can tell there's something missin.. I hate cryin over him because I know I'm wastin my tears but it's just so hard. I love him soo much...
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