I'm sure there are a lot of posts like this on here, so I'll keep this as succinct as possible. I am always wanting to kill myself. And the problem isn't something like a girl broke my heart or I got fired or anything like that. Well, those things factor in, but they're the effect, not the cause, of my depression. What causes my suicidal thoughts is a disability I have, one that isn't going away. So even if I start to 'feel better,' these things will crop back up again because I will still look like I do. So my question is, if this is never going to go away, what's keeping me from ending it?