Don't know who to trust anymore...

I can safely now say i hate Indians....and i don't mean all of them, i just mean those two-faced, bullshitting ones who live to fuck up other peoples lives...don't get me wrong...i'm Indian and that's the bloody problem. I'm trapped in this close-nit so called family-type community and have no existence of my own!! I cannot do anything, say anything talk to anyone without the whole of the fuucking British-India knowing! The worst thing is i'm not even doing anything wrong and i'm being labelled a bad Indian daughter....I just want to forget i'm Indian, forget who's daughter i am or who's granddaughter I am or what family i'm from and be me! is that so much to ask for? I don't understand how these people can move here and expect me..a British born child to follow 80's Indian culture. Out of this house i have to live my life, i have to live in THIS society and i can't do that and be the person they want me to be at the same time! It genuinely is getting to the point where they will lose me forever, i'm tired one being someone people want me to be...whether that's society or my culture ....i'm just drained of this life and it's expectations i really am...