I didn't even realize it was happening. I didn't even understand how much time I've been spending with my best friend. Especially when the problems with my boyfriend just didn't fade away. Everyone thinks that me and my best friend are already dating or fucking or whatever, but it was never true. It still isn't true. We'd brush it off and laugh. Even my family loves my best friend way more than my boyfriend and thinks we should be together. They make fun of me and say how we are in love and don't even know it. Now I feel like they are all right. My best friend is perfect: he's sweet, caring, always there for me, always tries to make things right, and he's CHANGED so much for me. He use to kind of be an asshole and now he doesn't because of me. He even cut his hair for me and dresses differently for me. My boyfriend is great sometimes, but most of the time we are fighting. He always fucks up and tells people EVERYTHING. He gossips like a woman. I know he loves me. I can see it in his eyes and he tells me all the time and for the longest time that was enough for me. But now I feel like I love him, but I'm not in love with him. My boyfriend wouldn't even get off of Skyrim to talk to me on the phone when we were in a BIG fight. My best friend will play his video games AND be on the phone having a perfect conversation. I spend so much time with my best friend. We talk multiple times a day on the phone, almost every night until like 3 in the morning sometimes. I see him every day in school. And after this year we plan on moving in together... I don't know what to do and I don't even know if these feelings are real. It feels right though. I'm just all mixed up.
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