She broke my heart

I'm doing the same thing she did to me to another girl. I'm so sorry. Cold inside. My mind is in a weird place. Even after everything you said and did to me I still want you back. Fck the world and its rules. I'm falling into a rabbit hole. Someone please help me before its too late. I'm about to hurt a really cool girl. God save me. Lust is a dangerous thing. Crazy crazy. It all started with positive motivation of not wanting to be alone but I find my self more alone than ever before. Maybe some people aren't meant to exp love. Why I'm I becoming like this. I need to stop, get up, and start again. God forgive me for what I've done or what I will do. I'm sorry.