I've got a bit of a confession to make: for the past year, maybe year and a half, I've had a long distance slave. Not, like, a girl locked in the basement kind of thing. More of a strange bdsm affair I don't know how to put into words. She's a masochist, gets off to being hurt, but can't do it alone. She says it's not the same, that she needs someone else to do it, or "make" her do it. I'm not really sure how I met her. It was such a long time ago... we were playing an MMORPG and came across each other one day. Started talking, exchanged AIM's, then started talking on the phone. This wasn't dark, romantic stuff, we were just friends passing the time when we were bored. Then something changed. I was teasing her, I think, saying that she needed a spanking because she was being naughty. She giggled a little, and said something I can't remember, but it was encouraging. It was such a strange blur that I can't remember most of the conversation that followed, but an hour later she was paddling herself with a hair brush while she moaned like a whore into the phone. I've cybered rough stuff before, but never done it in real life, I never hang around the kind of people that would be into that stuff. But somehow me and my slave met online, and after that night of light spanking, I just kind of fell down the rabbit hole after her. Now, she wears a "day collar," has a few hand-picked (by me) s&m toys that she uses when we play on the phone. She acts like a brat when she wants a harsh punishment. We’ve gone from light play to rough beatings that draw blood , only a little, but she likes it a lot. We’re very careful, so safety isn’t an issue. I don't love her. She doesn't love me either. I mean, I care for her, but it's not love. She adores me as a master and friend, and I adore her like one might a prized possession or favorite pet. I know that sooner or later we’re going to meet in real life. Hang out for a few days, give her enough love to last her a few months, and then when she leaves, things will go back to normal again. Now that I’ve written it down, it all sounds really crazy..