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the stroy of "vash the stamped" or "trigun" for u animie freaks, the would be christ if jesus was born a gun slinger. tempted and beaten, redemedded by his father (mother in this case. begin they only knew a mother, not a father.) who promised god he woud look after his brother. Promises to take care of his brother, but 1 other ? rang in side his head.this from Wolfghainghn."what will you do when you find "Knives"?""Knives" the one who destroyed everything. the 1 person who got him to kill. his brother. "GoD" had forgiven him before, "GoD" knew which path her child would take and had told him all along. your choice you have free will. i have faith you will make the right choice. (all the ppl he met on most recent trip. where her angels guiding him) she for gave him his tresspass of murder. telling hi8m the was no win/win this time. but you chose well. you chose the many veruse the one. "I promisw you mother I will never make the same mistake again. Iwill save my brother."guess you cou;d almost chalk this up to a greek tragedy.
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RE: help...
Posted on February 28, 2012 at 08:37 AM (UTC) ( about 1 year ago )wrote the following:
thought...
ppl speak of porn. now i pose to you the reader a ? ?
define porn...
i'm waiting....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
porn the PHYCIAL PENERTRATION OF THE PENIS INTO THE VAGINA, ASS (ONLY CAUSE I CAN'T SPELL THE OTHER WORD............................................ANUS....)
OR MOUTH. But thats not the only kind of porn...
think of it like this...
k before i go any further. i need to look up a few things so i don't put my foot in my mouth.
i man if i go any further (research..._). No one would believe i do plan on killing these people. (srry fbi moment didn't i capitalize "do" for emphasis....? y leave it lower case? what's the thinking?). there really is none i just noticed i used lower case verse upper case and thought if a person was serious about doing something such as killing a person would they not capitalize it? so simply because i did not capitalize "do" does this mean i'm serious or full of shit?
i'm serious.
it’s just a matter of when.
on some level i believe that by writing this blog it will help "keep me" from actually killing these individuals. but on a deeper level, the word "no" seems to ring...so what other inner demon is this yet undiscovered? k so a number of "issues" (yes a gay/chick word. sue me!) main issue...mother complex. once again we return to...
gingers.
sandy,
mom,
sandy=8yrs
"Cheating Whore!"
(yes i hit enter only enough times so that sandy=8yrs could see it. (strange not sure what road this goes down.))
funny i wanted to write a book about sandy. funny the blog is turning slowly into a book still about her but only about how much i want to kill her and what lengths i'm willing to go through to do it (in the event simply putting to type my thoughts could help me as i can't afford a psychologist and the net is free ppl give advice some good some bad...it’s up to us to decide which is which. no one ever chooses all the right answers...only a few a right most are wrong and thats how we learn what is right.
(to anyone who thinks to complain about how I can’t seemingly hold a thought. “ITS MY BLOG AND I”LL WRITE IT N/EWAY I SEE FIT!!!”)
Late introduction will have to rewind ex plain this.
remember about 6xs touching. why 6xs letting him touch me. tryin to push him to hit me so i could. respond in self-defense...and he accidently dies whiles i'm defending myself. 62 yro fucking up my perfect murder. me no longer working for him and how he is having all kinds of trouble now...reasons thanksgiving, ex-wife, 62 yro dumb fuck, me quitting....i could be friend/lie to him get back into his good graces but not work for him but be his ear and then some. i then could get inside and get the info that i want and i could destroy him, finanatually, emotionally.
K back to gingers…
30 rock (tells ya how old I am) liz lemon does like a speed dating thing and runs into the guy time and time again an hes all on about “fate”.
So it got me thinking to about how I 1st met sandy. It was on my way to a park. I was on my bmx racing bike (as I’m a little guy and these bike are a good fit). I passed these 2 young gettho looking chicks 15-16 at tops. They hit me up to buy them some smokes…
I do.
I give them their smokes and begin to ride off. About a block or two later I stop and make a quick U back to where I last saw the girls.
I get there and their gone.
Weeks maybe months pass. Running around old places I know I find my kind. An old open air mall. It has the best arcade opened late with the best games. That’s where I find them. My night ppl. B it they are young most of them, few drive, most r defiant, but all do the same things smoke drink fuck pop pills and things I aint nvr seen. But I’m getting off topic spme how someway that thugly ginger with the killer eyes was dressed all in black and hanging all over me. I made a statement to her about the buying herr smokes thing. Letting her know it was “fate” that we should met this time again. “We Where Meant To Be!”
I was sooooooooo WRONG!
What “fate” had brought together was doomed from the start.
I thought this second chance meeting was “fate”. (so did she for about 2 weeks).
(I’m pissed but I’m older and I’m a man. So I play off it when “fate deams I should find her again at a party. While I’m busy drinking a 1.75l of vodak and cran with a 5’2” version of gwen stephony in a classic victorian gothic dress. 3 days later shes at my front door.
(this is one of the points in my life I wish (if there is a god) would have killed me/ smiten me/ something other than let me live through that. For eight years. If hell is like that…
I’m killing what makes up my hell.
I haven’t writen in a while cause peace was found….
Then the peace was shattered.
Another in the growing list….
(how to keep them from looking like a serial murderer?)
So far as I know I can think of nothing that links me to all these people.
Certain ones will have to die certain ways.
Question? Who first?
Don’t really have an answer to that one as yet I think it would be more of a crime of opportunity, but certain ppl have to die certain ways that won’t change.
Really funny thought. Police person spends 10 yrs working a case. After ten years cop person catches the bad guy. Cop thinks hes won “ I caught the bad guy”. Proclaimed over and over. But heres the, the thing a bad guy that likes to be in the spotlight and still destroy some one would get off hardcore on getting arrested after so long.
Reason:
They are god in that police persons life. Every case from this point on in their police career will be compared to your case. YOUR CASE. You my friend ARE sick!!!!!
Kinda like it….
That really is funny.
That publically made statement ‘WHAT?!?!?’. That cops life is forever ruined. Just like the story of the gun slinger who nvr killed. He always found a way to save every one.
Heres the thing the story is kinda like a jesus vs the devil (where the devil is his brother). Thing
The story goes much deeper. (this is a sort of an explaination of how the bad guy becomes god.)
Story stasrts in space. Two children not born of man angels so to speak. Brought up by this woman. (theres a great qouate that fits here. Its from the “CROW” starring Brandon Lee”. It goes something along the lines of “Mother is the name for God on the lips of children”.) So in essance to these two children she was their idea of God. Instead of calling them jesus and the devil lets call them cain and able. Where the one named (want to jokingly put the whole name verse the short form) “Vash the stampde”(forgot to mention why the flip cain able thing. One night vash had the chance to kill “Knives” but (Rem.) God’s words echoed through his head. “No one has the right to take the life ofanother.” So he dosen’t kill his brother.) He is the flip of the bible cain and the other is able gone bad. Knives. Knives (satan, Able (gone bad)). Sets all the computers on the “seed” ships to crash land on this desert planet in the hopes to kill all the humans who fled a dying earth. So that he and his brother ciould have their own eden, but the one they refered to as God commited one last act (or so was thought) saved a good percentage of the humans. To Knives dismay. The two of them survive in the escape pod they jetesunded in. Knives confesses to Vash about how it was him who caused all the ships to crash. Vash him don’t get along but brother knives is all he has atm. Yr 3 Knives makes them both a set of guns. Gives the white gun to vash and he keeps black. They speperate. Knives goes his way with the intent of killing all the surviving humans. Vash with the intent to save everyone. But not before he lost his left arm in a gun fight with his brother, and forced to use his utimate weapon to destroy a town. Because of this fact he has a reward of 60,000,000,000 double dollars on his head. He tries to avoid conflict but trouble always finds him. But no matter the problem in his weird and stupid way he saves everyone.
His brother. Knives. Employs a number of gifted gun slingers refered to as “Demons” or as the “Gun Ho Guns”. (fallen angels for those of you who can’t follow along.) He constantly tests and teases his brother vash to get pissed enough to finally kill a person. He uses his demons to kill numbers of ppl in front of vash in the hopes he will break and finally kill. He fights them all saves everyone with out killing them (but they where in facted killed by their own ppl (said in a monty python sorta way). ). Finally he gets to his number one gun slinger. “Blades”
(hold it I forgot some one.) “Wolfgaingh”
(he was judas turn good. (cause he had a chance to bertray and kill him but chose to fight and die up holding the belief that everyone could be saved.)) (just info/filler.)\
“Blades” is like the left hand of the devil verse the (that’s y ppl don’t like lefties its engrained into our society.) right hand of god.
Plot twist: not only is “Blades” “Knives” left hand demon he also has vashes “LEFT ARM”. Giving him sudo angelic powers. Vash refushes to kill “Blades” after a tuff gun battle. Beat, bruised, bleeding…from protecting ppl from “Blades” gun and powers….yet he still refuses to kill blade all while trying to save everyone.
Then it happens…
THE REAL TEST OF GOD.
Will he kill?
God said “No one has ther right to take the life of another.” He has lived by these words for over 107 years. (at this point I should acknowldge that I have left out other parts of the story. Not because they fail to met the biblical explaination. They do just trying to get you to watch the show its self snd think if I’m right about it.) k witrh that said.
Vash had a love interest (which he didn’t really know he had, but “Blades” did). “Blades got a hold of his unknownst love and her best friend and was having them beaten and shot at. (other point because “Blades” has “Vashes” left arm attached to his body he is 80% as powerful as Vash (only because he knows how to use the powers of the arm. Where vash has no clue how to use those powers. He is able to activate the ture powers of the gun vash carries while in vashes hand, Vash is able to beat back “Blade’s” power over the gun and wound him in the process. “Blades” though wounded still has the power of vashes left arm. He uses that power to still control the people threating in his friends. Telling him “Kill me and all this stops(ends).”
Vash has his gun to “Blades’” head. Thinking.
Thinking.
Thinking.
“How Do T Save Them All?”
“kill me and this all ends.”
“NO!, it goes against God!”
“kill me and this all ends.” Echoing, ringing, drowning out every other thought.
“kill me and this all ends.”
“No!, God said it. “No one has the right to end the life of another.” “I, can’t kill!” “ I will break my promise to God.!?!?!?” “I just can’t let my friends die right in front of me.” (his brother is watching all this take place some place far away. Smiling to himslef. Giggling gleefully. Knowing this is the point to which he becomes god in his brothers life.) Hes at a loss “What do I do?” “ I can save them all…can I? can I really do it? Am I wrong just this once?” all the while the voice echoes “kill me and this all ends.”
“ I can save them…right? Theres no way…””one death to save the many””. “one justifiable sin?” “Kill one person to save hundreds, the thousands.”
“God what do I do? I haves followed all you have said for over 107 years”. “I have never killed as single person.” (unknown realization all the ppl he met on his journeys helped him to better understand what god meant, and how to live with his decision.)
The point has come when his brother wins.
His gun still held to “Blades” head…he closes his eyes, and imagines god 1 last time…and pulls the trigger.
He wakes days later unsure of what he has done only to realize he has killed a man with his own hand…he has broken his promise to god. He killed a man. His brother finally found the one thing to make him break and his brother will know this and will forever be god cause he beat and broke all his brother held dear.He killed a man. No more can he brag about saving everyone…he has killed, he is now no longer any different.
So in point of it all that’s how a crimanal could become a god. Works really well if the cop is like 60 and has been on the case for 20 years. (wow so surpriesed I for got this part. No matter the age of the cop if they have been on the case for say 5 yrs or more. No matter the age. 5 yrs these are land mark cases. So that’s the crazy logic to it but real actually surprised to find how few killers have found a revalaince in that.
Stuff I think about when I have time.
Totally off subject but just a thought…about how god can come in so many forms. Its all about what is your greatest aspiration. What won’t you do to get to your goals? Wow how best to say this? A very small percentage of copes will spend as many as 5 yrs on a case. So any case that has taken over 5 yrs is a land mark in said officers careeer. Of the few that get 5 year land mark case all will be forever be compared to that case. EVERY FAILURE WILL BE FOREVER COMPARED TO MY CASE. I AM YOUR GOD.
Hear the echos of failure….
You’re not as sharp as you where on ‘blah blah’ case.
‘GoD’
“Wow, a seasoned vet like you with ‘blah blah’ case under your belt, “Missed this”!
‘disappointment,…
(thoughts of doubt. When I was working case ‘blah blah’. I was ace. I can’t…I can’t be this wrong. “Everything I do from now on will be compared to this my greatest acopmlishment.)”
‘God’
“I’m 40 yrs old. This was my big case. These casses come once in a life time to break a case like this. (subconciesiouslious he was worried that every faulure will be judged by the work he did on that once in a life time case. ‘Crook’ wins. ‘GoD’ Reason y “Knives” became vashes god. Vash now felt eternal pain for having killed a man and “Knives” was the sole reasom. But vash killed a man with his own hand…he broke ‘God’s law…
He killed.
His brother is now god because he was forced to sin because he could find no way out. He prided himself as nvr having killed a man, but
‘there was no way’
…(eyes closed)
…(Imagines GoD)
…cries one singular tear.
…a squeeze…
White.
GoD fades…
“I failed you!”
This is where I choose to end my story
RE: help...
Posted on February 28, 2012 at 09:12 AM (UTC) ( about 1 year ago )wrote the following:
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